Fathers's Day

Well I cant complain that this is another holiday dreamed up by a card company or candy company it certainly has become commercialized.  Every year my daughter asks me what I want to do for Father's day and I always respond have peace and quiet.  My expert's Father has not been int he picture since she was 7 year old.  It has been just me and her.  In the early years she would have a problem as she thought she had to have a father to celebrate this holiday but I always told her it doesn't matter.  What was important is that she recognize some one important in her life that she wanted to thanks to.  For many years nothing was said and then when my expert became  a teenager (you know how challenging it gets at that point)  she started with this question.    Now it is a day of promises that have been made and my expert procrastinator is still in bed.  She will eventually get up when I annoy her enough.  I sit her and laugh as I write this because I realize this is not a holiday it is like everyday in our lives. 

She sleeps and I have cleaned the kitchen top to bottom, refilled the prescriptions, done some laundry, etc.... doesn't every family spend their Sunday's like this?  We need to get to the pet store!!! hahaha  If this isn't how people spend their Sunday's then what?  Ambivalent? Yes or No?

A lovely Sunday Morning.....

Sunday mornings are so many things to so many people.  To me  it is usually the last day to hurry up and get everything done for the work week is beginning.  But more and more I am finding this day to be a day to relax and do things I want to do not what I have to do.  I am slowly figuring out that this is what I need to do not only for my physical health but my mental health.  I am in a whirlwind during the week as it is that the brain needs to slow down.  I see in the corner of my bed room the beginning of a beautiful craft corner but I have not taken the time to work on it.  Last night I was at a very good friends birthday party (yes I ventured out into the real world and socialized) and was in a wonderful conversation with my friends mother.  I made a statement that really made an impact on me.  We were talking about doing crafts sewing and our kids and I said to her that my house has never really been clean because I have always had things do to out for my daughter and her Friends.  And this is so true.  just recently I have had this overwhelming urge to clean the house like my mother but it has been difficult but now why do I have to.  I should have it the way I am comfortable and if it is not to someone else liking it is not their home.  And there is the key word - home.  I have been referring to the place I love as my house not as my home.  Yes there are a few spots that I need to work on but I need to work on my home...Just Thinking

The need to Rant

Yes, all people need to rant for some reason or another.  I get so pissed when I am bit allowed to in my own house.  Tonight I am desperate to get some sleep, I have pain and I am am frustrated by my daughter's pissy attitude when I ask for help.  I know I will regret mentioning her but there are times that I just can keep it in.  I have progressive remitting multiple sclerosis.  I think of it as another chapter in my life and life goes one sometimes with roadblocks ere and there.  My roadblock mostly happens at nighttime with leg pain and spasms.  I deal with it most of the time without bothering her but there are times i just need to let out my frustrations and she is the closest.   I have been there for 20 years supporting her in her times of need so I think it is my turn.  Not that I am feeling sorry for myself it just a way of dealing with going on at a moment in time.  Like i said in my preface these are my thoughts and no one should take offense.  I believe you deal with it in the moment and ten go one.  If you dwell on something it will just become baggage that becomes too heavy to carry around.  Enough ranting on this subject.

My Soapbox on Holidays.....

I am not one who usually hates holidays although I tend to become annoyed at the people who get excited as they fall into the trap of the commercialization and not the true sense of the holiday.  But Memorial Day is really the first holiday that I believe people really understand, reflect and celebrate for what it was meant for.  Yes this may be naive on my part and granted there are people who see it as a 3 days weekend to party but even at our campground, my parents Yacht club, and event the silly town parades they still try to bring forth the essence of the day.  I get so angry when I see stores push Memorial Day as the beginning of the Summer season so quick come in and buy your stuff.  Which only reminds me of the great comedian George Carlin's rant on what stuff is.  But I digress - In my memory of 48 years I have had no relations of mine die for my country in a war however every time I see or hear of someone who has it affects me personally.  I believe this is the most important holiday that we have.  Independence day is nice but again it is lost just as Christmas is.  If we are really celebrating our Independence we would be celebrating it on August 2nd.  And even more interesting depending on your religion Christmas is even harder to pin down to a true date.  One belief is that the Pope set aside December 25th for the celebration of Jesus Christ as the christian holiday could not compete with  other pagan celebration that happened around the the Winter Solstice. Wow that was a rant.  As I reread this I am reminded of the advice when out with friends one should never talk about politics or religion as it could get you in trouble.  Let me leave you with one of my favorite quotes that come from Randy Pausch, "The questions are always more important than the answers."

Peace and Quiet

My step father who we called Grump always asked for Peace and Quiet on his Christmas list.  He said he never got it. I think the exception is when he was in Georgian bay Fishing.  He has passed some years now and I have taken up the cause for Peace and Quiet.  My expert is out of town for the next couple of days and I have been looking forward to a little time to myself.  Now as I sit here trying to figure out what I have to get done today and tomorrow so I can leave right from work to camp (Okay I have a secret piece of P&Q) like Grump I dont think I truly will find P&Q all the time.  It will come in little snippets like going to camp, sitting and doing a puzzle, or quietly blogging away.  And yes doing my Cafe World is part of P&Q.     Alas my P&Q has ended for now...they are spraying for bee's tomorrow and I have to get 3 adirondack chairs off my little porch area thoogh an open window by myself. We live in a "Garden Apartment" It is not that bad because I can still do it by myself.  Then it is off to save the world or in my case the bathroom.  I cant seem to find the sink..hehehehe

It begins....

As this is a new adventure I can already see some growing pains to come.  First I need my expert (in everything) to personalize this for me.  Secondly I am hoping a few people get a joke I planted.   I can see I have a lot to learn in this realm.  My expert who she will be lovingly called though out does this type of thing and also role playing.  I can see her rolling her eyes and and saying the dreaded "Mom" word.  I need to discuss with her what is off limits when I talk about my expert .  I think I also need to talk to a few of my close friends to see whether they need a Nome De plume. 
My thought for the day really is why cant a 20 year old get housework done in the same time I can.  In 3 hours I have done 3 loads of laundry, done the dishes, cleaned the lining room so you can see that it is a living room, got my Cafe world up to snuff, and started a blog.  By myself too despite me physical limitation (another subject). I can see the puffs of irate smoke already and she is an hour a way at this point.

Well I am going to go make myself a hamburger with Worcester sauce, onions, catsup on a bun, fold clothes, take my meds and yes finally go to bed....that is unless I think of some thing else...