Fathers's Day

Well I cant complain that this is another holiday dreamed up by a card company or candy company it certainly has become commercialized.  Every year my daughter asks me what I want to do for Father's day and I always respond have peace and quiet.  My expert's Father has not been int he picture since she was 7 year old.  It has been just me and her.  In the early years she would have a problem as she thought she had to have a father to celebrate this holiday but I always told her it doesn't matter.  What was important is that she recognize some one important in her life that she wanted to thanks to.  For many years nothing was said and then when my expert became  a teenager (you know how challenging it gets at that point)  she started with this question.    Now it is a day of promises that have been made and my expert procrastinator is still in bed.  She will eventually get up when I annoy her enough.  I sit her and laugh as I write this because I realize this is not a holiday it is like everyday in our lives. 

She sleeps and I have cleaned the kitchen top to bottom, refilled the prescriptions, done some laundry, etc.... doesn't every family spend their Sunday's like this?  We need to get to the pet store!!! hahaha  If this isn't how people spend their Sunday's then what?  Ambivalent? Yes or No?

A lovely Sunday Morning.....

Sunday mornings are so many things to so many people.  To me  it is usually the last day to hurry up and get everything done for the work week is beginning.  But more and more I am finding this day to be a day to relax and do things I want to do not what I have to do.  I am slowly figuring out that this is what I need to do not only for my physical health but my mental health.  I am in a whirlwind during the week as it is that the brain needs to slow down.  I see in the corner of my bed room the beginning of a beautiful craft corner but I have not taken the time to work on it.  Last night I was at a very good friends birthday party (yes I ventured out into the real world and socialized) and was in a wonderful conversation with my friends mother.  I made a statement that really made an impact on me.  We were talking about doing crafts sewing and our kids and I said to her that my house has never really been clean because I have always had things do to out for my daughter and her Friends.  And this is so true.  just recently I have had this overwhelming urge to clean the house like my mother but it has been difficult but now why do I have to.  I should have it the way I am comfortable and if it is not to someone else liking it is not their home.  And there is the key word - home.  I have been referring to the place I love as my house not as my home.  Yes there are a few spots that I need to work on but I need to work on my home...Just Thinking

The need to Rant

Yes, all people need to rant for some reason or another.  I get so pissed when I am bit allowed to in my own house.  Tonight I am desperate to get some sleep, I have pain and I am am frustrated by my daughter's pissy attitude when I ask for help.  I know I will regret mentioning her but there are times that I just can keep it in.  I have progressive remitting multiple sclerosis.  I think of it as another chapter in my life and life goes one sometimes with roadblocks ere and there.  My roadblock mostly happens at nighttime with leg pain and spasms.  I deal with it most of the time without bothering her but there are times i just need to let out my frustrations and she is the closest.   I have been there for 20 years supporting her in her times of need so I think it is my turn.  Not that I am feeling sorry for myself it just a way of dealing with going on at a moment in time.  Like i said in my preface these are my thoughts and no one should take offense.  I believe you deal with it in the moment and ten go one.  If you dwell on something it will just become baggage that becomes too heavy to carry around.  Enough ranting on this subject.